Friday, March 09, 2012

My Lady Sophia





For wisdom is more mobile than any motion;
because of her pureness she pervades and penetrates all things.
For she is a breath of the power of God,
and a pure emanation of the glory of the Almighty;
therefore nothing defiled gains entrance into her.
For she is a reflection of eternal light,
a spotless mirror of the working of God,
and an image of his goodness.
Although she is but one, she can do all things,
and while remaining in herself, she renews all things;
in every generation she passes into holy souls
and makes them friends of God, and prophets;
for God loves nothing so much as the person who lives with wisdom.

Wisdom 7:24-28*


When I recite the Nicene Creed there's one section that I change every time...

"...I believe in the Holy Spirit, the Sophia, the giver of life, who proceeds from the Father and the Son. From the Father and the Son, She is worshipped and glorified, She has spoken through the prophets..."

Actually, at my home church (St. Mark's Cathedral, Seattle) a lot of folks can be heard saying "she" as they recite this part of the Creed.

Why is this?

For most, it is a nod toward the female aspect of God; a way of bringing something feminine into the "Father, Son and Holy Spirit" situation.

Which is very cool...

For me, it is a direct reflection of the way the Old Testament speaks of the Wisdom of God (i.e. The Holy Spirit).

As you can see from the above Scripture passage, Wisdom was perceived as female.

Also very cool.

I find it very comforting and satisfying to think that the power that connects us to God has been identified as female in some of the oldest scripture on the planet. It flies in the face of ner-do-wells who conceive the Bible as male-dominated misogyny.

Which it isn't.

It creates a nice balance; God as genderless, all pervasive, everywhere, Christ as male (duh, he was a dude after all...) and the Holy Spirit as female. You feel encircled, embraced in the center of a triangle of balance, of equality...

Of peace.

It's a nice feeling.

* The BCP Lectionary for Mar 9, the feast of Gregory, Bishop of Nyssa.






Sunday, August 28, 2011

Last Sunday in Cathlamet


-- Let love be genuine; hate what is evil, hold fast to what is good; love one another with mutual affection; outdo one another in showing honor. Do not lag in zeal, be ardent in spirit, serve the Lord. Rejoice in hope, be patient in suffering, persevere in prayer. Contribute to the needs of the saints; extend hospitality to strangers. Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse them. Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep. Live in harmony with one another; do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly; do not claim to be wiser than you are. Do not repay anyone evil for evil, but take thought for what is noble in the sight of all. If it is possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all. Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave room for the wrath of God; for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.” No, “if your enemies are hungry, feed them; if they are thirsty, give them something to drink; for by doing this you will heap burning coals on their heads.” Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good. --

Romans 12:9-21

Read it again.

Seriously, read the scripture again...

Now think about it.

Really THINK...

Then, with God's absolute help...

...try to do it.

-Peace

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

(Really) Late Sunday Blog


-- Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your minds, so that you may discern what is the will of God—what is good and acceptable and perfect. --

Roman 12:2

Ah conformity...

It's hard not to 'conform' to the world, you know?

All you can really do is look at each situation and ask yourself what the right thing to do actually is...

Whether you want to do what's right or not.

Almost every single time conforming is the wrong thing to do.

Think about it.

No, really...

THINK.

-D-



Sunday, August 14, 2011

Wow... it's been a while.



"...But what comes out of the mouth proceeds from the heart, and this is what defiles. For out of the heart come evil intentions, murder, adultery, fornication, theft, false witness, slander. These are what defile a person, but to eat with unwashed hands does not defile.”

- Matthew 15:18-20 -

*from the Revised Common Lectionary reading assigned to Aug. 14

Hi.

I'm back.

Well... I really never left. Just stopped blogging for awhile.

Ha, awhile... like two years.

Anyway...

(if you want to catch up on my last two years, see the note at the end of this blog)

I pulled the above statement out of the scripture for today 'cause it's really a no-brainer...

Or is it?

Yeah, it is... it's just bloody hard to do.

Now most of us haven't committed the 'big gun' crimes named in the scripture; slander, false-witness, theft, fornication, adultery, murder (and maybe we should leave out 'fornication' for now as well hummm...). However, the statement begins by saying, literally, "For out of the heart come evil intentions..."...

And brother, Evil Intentions is what I'm talking about.

How evil?

Well, that is a good question. Also one that folks like to skirt 'cause they want to believe that their own intentions aren't 'evil' at all.

evil
adj: ˈē-vəl, British often & US also ˈē-(ˌ)vil

1 a : morally reprehensible : sinful, wicked b : arising from actual or imputed bad character or conduct
2 a archaic : inferior b : causing discomfort or repulsion : offensive c : disagreeable
3 a : causing harm : pernicious b : marked by misfortune : unlucky

Please pay particular attention to definition 1:b...

Bad conduct baby...

We're all guilty.

Like when you talk about a friend behind their back, or when you squeeze in front of the slow old woman in the check-out line, or when you rat out a co-worker to the boss in hopes of gaining a promotion, or when you sneak $20 out of your spouse's wallet, or when you refuse to let the other car in at the merge lane on the freeway, or when you pocket that stick of gum without paying for it, or when you cut someone off when they're telling a story, or when you ignore your friends telephone call because you just don't feel like talking, or when you cheat on that math test, or when you say the one thing you know will hurt the most when the argument's not going your way, or when...

Etc, etc, etc...

We all do it, the list goes on ad infinitum. And what it boils down to is bad conduct.

What Jesus is suggesting is we have to try harder NOT to take the 'low' road. Try harder to listen when people talk, to turn the other cheek in the heat of the moment,
to not take everything so damn personally.

Lighten up would ya?

Over the past couple of years I've been trying hard to take the 'high' road. I catch myself failing again and again, but I'm learning and I'm getting better. But it's work.

Hard, deliberate work.

Take the time to really look at yourself, your actions in everyday life, the little things. Then admit where you're, well, wrong. Wrong acting, wrong speaking, wrong thinking...

And then, with God's help, try to make a change.

You'll be suprised.

I was...

and still am.

Peace.

*my personal story can be found at 'Cerebration' on blogspot.com*

Monday, February 23, 2009

Looking Forward To Lent



--O God, who before the passion of your only-begotten Son revealed his glory upon the holy mountain: Grant to us that we, beholding by faith the light of his countenance, may be strengthened to bear our cross, and be changed into his likeness from glory to glory; through Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen.--

Collect, BCP, Last Sunday of Epiphany.

Am looking forward to Lent this year.

My prayer life is a joke right now, my practice little better.

I have allowed the world into my heart and it has taken up residence like a cancer, distracting me from what is actually important: my relationship with Christ.

And if my relationship with Him is out of whack, how can I possibly deal with the world and all it's necessities...

Necessities like moving to a small, rural community in Southwestern Washington (my wife's hometown actually) where the folks are less than liberal, trying to find work in an area that has the highest unemployment rate in the state once I get there, figuring out how best to live and co-habitate with my parent-in-laws, navigating a bankruptcy, being a good spouse, being a supportive mother, being a responsible daughter-in-law/sister-in-law, taking good care of my pets, packing, working, sleeping, eating...

None of this flows for shit unless I'm right with God...

So I got mad at Him.

Yelled at Him. Hollered indignantly at Him about how I suddenly couldn't seem to see what He wanted of me, where He wanted me to go, what I was supposed to be doing. Cried, ranted and generally threw a hissy-fit...

Course none of this was His fault.

Never is.

The fault lay with me being off my game.

Discerning God's voice is easy when one has a solid prayer life, worship life and practice. He never stops talking, but it is up to us to do the work of listening.

And it is work, make no mistake.

I had just been working hard at all the wrong things in all the wrong ways.

But since God is Good/Love/Grace, He threw me a couple a' bones. Communications so obvious even I couldn't miss 'em, and then tenderly enveloped me as I figured it out...

I was taking Him for granted. I got so caught up in my shit that I forgot to ask Him for help, forgot to make time to talk to Him, forgot that relationships need tending, forgot that friendship works both ways.

But I've remembered now.

Thus, I am looking forward to Lent; as a time of cleansing, re-newal and getting my shit together.

And am looking forward to spending some real quality time with my friend.

-peace

Friday, January 30, 2009

Mindfulness and Setting Good Examples: Epiphany 4

--Now concerning food sacrificed to idols: we know that "all of us possess knowledge." Knowledge puffs up, but love builds up. Anyone who claims to know something does not yet have the necessary knowledge; but anyone who loves God is known by him.

Hence, as to the eating of food offered to idols, we know that "no idol in the world really exists," and that "there is no God but one." Indeed, even though there may be so-called gods in heaven or on earth-- as in fact there are many gods and many lords-- yet for us there is one God, the Father, from whom are all things and for whom we exist, and one Lord, Jesus Christ, through whom are all things and through whom we exist.

It is not everyone, however, who has this knowledge. Since some have become so accustomed to idols until now, they still think of the food they eat as food offered to an idol; and their conscience, being weak, is defiled. "Food will not bring us close to God." We are no worse off if we do not eat, and no better off if we do. But take care that this liberty of yours does not somehow become a stumbling block to the weak. For if others see you, who possess knowledge, eating in the temple of an idol, might they not, since their conscience is weak, be encouraged to the point of eating food sacrificed to idols? So by your knowledge those weak believers for whom Christ died are destroyed. But when you thus sin against members of your family, and wound their conscience when it is weak, you sin against Christ. Therefore, if food is a cause of their falling, I will never eat meat, so that I may not cause one of them to fall.--

1 Corinthians 8:1-13*

I love this passage.

And I love history, as seen in Scripture.

Why?

I love the latter, mostly for it's unique ability to showcase the amazing continuity of the human experience; continuity that brings me great comfort.

The former?

Because it is a lovely, loving, long-winded way to say, 'It is your responsibility to set a good example in the Lord, and to be mindful of the building up of your brothers and sisters in the Way'

Especially when you know better than they...

--Therefore, if food is a cause of their falling, I will never eat meat, so that I may not cause one of them to fall.--

So...

While I am not planning on going off meat anytime soon, (I tend to eat very little anyway), I have taken a look at my habits and have decided to begin the deliberate process of eliminating some of the worse ones.

Thus, a cessation of cigarette smoking, (tho' I plan to smoke moderately from a good old fashioned tobacco pipe... a 'Juno' movie fetish my wife got started, anyway...) and a slow weaning off of 'you know what', which will be accompanied by a small increase in my head-meds (Hurray...Not!). Also, I plan on trying to cultivate the 'cheap date' alcohol tolerance level, thus/so as to only ever drink two drinks when drinking and to try mostly not drinking at all...

I know, I know, it sounds like a lot, but it's not, not really...

It's a taking off, as opposed to a taking on. And I'm pretty sure I'll feel lighter for having done it...

plus...

I'm tired.

Really, really tired.

And it just suddenly seems easier to simplify everything, up to and including the things I do/put into myself. To have as little to monitor as possible.

To turn as much of my energy/focus towards things that are simple...

Things that are clean.

It is here that Paul's admonishment and reminder feels closest to me.

We must remember that not all are at the same place along the Way. Some of the Body are further along in wisdom and maturity, some are closer to the beginning. Corporeal age has nothing to do with the maturity of one's Faith in Christ, nor does length of time spent in community (ie: how long one has been going to 'church', how long one has been Baptized etc.). Intention, discernment, prayer, willingness and humility seem to go further towards opening one's heart; surely the point of the journey, as only an open heart is truly capable of compassion and love.

As we are one Body, those who have traveled further in maturity (with Christ's help) have a responsibility to help make the journey of all others as un-troubled as possible. If by our conscious example and choices we can ease the path of any walking the Way, then we are obligated to do so.

If we're not doing this, we need to tend a little closer to our own footsteps along the Way...

and pray much more ceaselessly for God's Grace and Help.

Which we all should be doing anyway...

and we know it.

-peace


*RCL Lectionary reading for the Fourth Sunday of Epiphany, Feb 1, 2009.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Gone Fishin':An Early Sunday Blog 1-24-09

--Now after John was arrested, Jesus came to Galilee, proclaiming the good news of God, and saying, "The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God has come near; repent, and believe in the good news."

As Jesus passed along the Sea of Galilee, he saw Simon and his brother Andrew casting a net into the sea-- for they were fishermen. And Jesus said to them, "Follow me and I will make you fish for people." And immediately they left their nets and followed him. As he went a little farther, he saw James son of Zebedee and his brother John, who were in their boat mending the nets. Immediately he called them; and they left their father Zebedee in the boat with the hired men, and followed him.--

Mark 1:14-20

*sigh...

no pic' this blog, as my wife's computer is not letting me have that option...

sorry kids, you'll just have to use your imaginations...

here goes.

I'm tired,

and I'm gonna go fishin'.

After 15 years in Seattle: one divorce, one heavy break-up, one business failure, a decade back-stage, one religious conversion, one bachelor's degree, four ministries, three loves and one marriage later...

I'm out'a here,

come April 30th...

come Hell or high water.

I'll miss everyone and everything that I love in/of Seattle...

but sometimes it's better to miss something you love.

Sometimes sacrifice bleeds you clean.

Thus the Gospel example of Epiphany 2, 2009.

Simon and Andrew, dropping those nets, with James and John right behind them...leaving all the familiar things they held dear, that they loved: to walk the Way with Christ. A Way unknown to them, a mystery, a chance and a sacrifice with no known outcome...

with only the flame Jesus stirred in their hearts to sustain them...this terrifying, beautiful, inexplicable fire.

I feel that fire,

and I desire to burn in it as completely as I can manage this life…

and I find that I deeply desire some serious quiet in which to do it.

I fell in love with my wife… a good and honorable thing, a thing which to honor righteously one must attend to like a garden.

If God hadn’t given me this gardener’s gig, I probably would’ve entered the cloister…

if one would’a had me that is.

However, I ache for the open spaces, the pasture, orchard and garden, the small town main street…a place where folks know each other, whether they like one another or not.

A place I can dig in and make a difference as I walk…

A place to slow down and listen for the still, small voice of God.

I think God has led me towards that place which for me will unite me more firmly to His will…

I will miss y’all,

But then I’ve kinda already been gone.

-peace